What I Now Know About Love
I used to think love meant sacrificing your own happiness for someone else.
That it was noble to give up so much of yourself for a little in return.
Because that was all they were capable of at that time.
And I was okay with that because I imagined a better future.
But now I know that I don’t want to wait.
I used to think love meant convincing yourself it didn’t matter when plans were never made.
That is was good to have other priorities and goals.
Because life is hard and we all have different backgrounds and stories that shape us.
And I was okay with it because I hoped to one day be just as important.
But now I know about balance and that I am a priority.
I used to think love meant being patient to the point where it hurt.
That is was right to be understanding and accepting.
Because it showed how strong the love was.
And I was okay with it because I felt I was being a good person.
But now I know that patience comes in many different forms.
I know now that love does mean sacrificing your own happiness for someone else.
That we can order dinner from where you want tonight.
Because we can order what I want later in the week.
And I am okay with it because you have great taste buds.
Compromise is important.
I know now that plans don’t always have to be set in stone.
That I can chill out and relax and not plan every hour of life.
Because we will still be together and I will enjoy each minute.
And that things will get done but at a different pace than I am accustomed to.
Change is important.
I know now that love requires patience without pain.
That I need to talk when something bothers me.
Because we have very different thought processes.
And when we have discussions I am forced to let go of my anxiety.
Communication is important.
Every love is different. Every person in this world is shaped by different things. No one can truly understand the relationships we have with each other. We only know our own truth. We know what works for us and what doesn’t. I know that a lot of life has to do with timing. The right timing for a job. The right timing to move. The right timing to find love.
I’m grateful for my past experiences and losses because they helped me grow. And I am grateful that 2019 has been a wonderful year so far.
