My Anxiety Sometimes Turns Bad Moments into Bad Days

Everyone has bad days. It is human nature. Nothing is perfect. Well, maybe not everyone has bad days. I believe some people are good at having a bad moment or multiple bad moments in a day and still going to bed thinking they had a good day, or a decent day, or just a day but not a bad one.

I try to not let bad moments turn my days south but they inevitably do. Not all the time. But a couple of times a month or once every couple of months. My anxiety and depression are generally kept at bay but when they are triggered it can be hard to bounce back. I always do bounce back. But it sucks.

Sometimes I’m only upset or moody or depressed or anxious for an hour or two. Sometimes half a day. Most often, I can go to sleep and wake up the next day feeling better. However, there are times where my anxiety is horrible for a few days. Just the thought of food makes my stomach do somersaults. I’m often on the verge of tears. Anything said to me that isn’t overtly loving or supportive makes me shut down.

Trying to be real here so hope no one is offended by the following, but it’s generally around my period that I get extra moody. But it doesn’t happen every month and it is of incredibly various degrees. I can just be tired and sleep all day before work. Or I can be anxious and depressed. I’ll feel like I am wasting my life chasing dreams I will never reach. I will hate how much I pay for rent and I’ll hate missing out on family events in Michigan. I will hate that my mental health makes me lash out at my best friend over small things.

However, I know the cliches are true. I will make it through and the clouds will dissipate. I have to remind myself to breathe deeply. I do my best to get enough sleep.

I’m recently trying to avoid alcohol during my period because depression and alcohol truly do not mix. I know I’ve mixed the two plenty of times before but I am finally comprehending how terrible it makes me feel. One or two drinks is okay but once I am home alone my mind is horrible and annoying. It is really unfortunate. My body is already out of whack from hormones so there is literally no reason I should be adding substances that make it even worse!

I am slowing working on it all.

If you have bad days, you are a normal human. If you have bad moments, you are also a normal human. Or maybe you are human. I’m still searching for the answer to what is normal?